Do you ever go to bed worrying about something, and then when you wake up in the morning (assuming you were able to get to sleep at all), you're still worried—but for a groggy half-second you can't recall why? Oh. Me neither. Never mind.
For no really good reason, I woke up this morning with the weight of the world on my shoulders. I mean, I have a few smallish or mediumish things to fret about for real, but otherwise I couldn't quite put my finger on the problem. I spent the whole day in a bit of a funk, feeling more like I was rearranging deck chairs on the Titanic than actually getting anything done. There was the usual mix of good and bad and boring and fun that make up most of my days—nothing earth-shattering in either direction—but I just couldn't get my groove on. Here's hoping I'll wake up tomorrow just as inexplicably sunny and light-hearted.
Maybe you just need some sunshine and snacks?
Me? I need my shrink (2:00 today - hooray).
p.s.
I love that expression! "Rearranging deck chairs on the Titanic." I am so using that today.
Posted by: steve | June 04, 2008 at 09:43 AM
Wait a minute--are you saying there's another way to wake up? *Now* you tell me.
Posted by: Nancy | June 04, 2008 at 05:46 PM
I felt similarly this morning - almost over-caffeinated, but I hadnt had any coffee or anything. I was jumpy and out of sorts for hours before I calmed down and was able to focus on anything for more than a few minutes at a time. Very unlike me, and unnerving.
Posted by: Joel | June 04, 2008 at 10:16 PM
Having long ago (thank goodness) gotten over some clinical depression, I can say that "yes" I get feelings like that and boy am I glad when they only last a day or two rather than months or years, becoming self-fulfilling prophecies of doom.
What I learned is that avoiding despair is something that you take for granted (I used to b a naturally happy person) until one day you realize that it doesn't happen automatically (for you) anymore and you have to actually work for it. That's a lousy realization to have to come to, but it can really stand in the way of future happiness if you don't come to grips with it. That's for people who are lucky, like me, who are able to manage their depression cognitively.
When I wake up with the sort of feeling you describe, I have to consciously remind myself of all the times I have gotten myself out of such a feeling. Otherwise, there's the possibility of wallowing, which is a sort of depression snowball effect.
So, yes, I know how lousy that feeling can be! I hope it doesn't last long!
Posted by: James | June 07, 2008 at 05:34 PM