The sun rose today! Even though I didn't blog yesterday! Imagine that. I fully intended to blog; it just didn't happen. I worked all day, taking brief breaks here and there only to freak out about the Bat Mitzvah plans.
I feel bad that my overriding emotion about the upcoming event is anxiety and not eager anticipation. All I can think about are all the plans and details and things I'm surely forgetting—just today, for instance, it occurred to me out of nowhere that I'll need to get those little place cards that tell people which table to sit at. What else is not occurring to me? What am I not going to realize that I forgot to do/buy/order/arrange until it's too late? I wonder if I would be more relaxed if I weren't working so hard at the same time that all of this is going on. Well, in less than one month (EEK!), it'll all be over. I will have much more time and much more brain real estate freed up for work, my family, my own self. And, yes, I know: It will be a great day regardless of what plans I do or don't remember to make. I just can't help worrying. It's what I do best.
The biggest thing I have yet to do is write a speech. I don't even know how to begin. I'm fairly certain I won't be able to deliver my half of it—I've already told Andy that he will likely have to do the whole thing. I cried throughout my entire wedding and can't imagine that I'll have it any more together for this big milestone event.
As someone who plans events for a living, I can say that if you are a worrier, you are the best (wo)man for the job. All the fretting that worriers do ensure a good event because that means that all the details get covered. So go ahead and worry and know that on the day of, you won't have to worry at all because it will all be great. Also recognize right now that, as with all events, there will be at least one thing that won't go "right" but in all likelihood no one will notice...maybe not even you!
Posted by: Kerri | January 12, 2010 at 10:58 AM